A Beautiful Mess

The title of this song is actually really good. The song is too, but the name applies a lot.

First, I'm going to start with the 'mess' part of my life:
1. School has me completely and totally stressed. I have a lot of it, and it always seems to pop up at the worst times.
2. Due to the previous 'mess' I have been getting very little sleep lately.
3. Due to the previous 'mess' I have been extremely moody and grouchy which has caused me to snap at several people. If I've said anything rude to you lately I really am sorry.
4. I have been seeing and talking to Scott less and less, due to the school situation and other stupid factors, and since he is one of the few people that can actually get me calmed down when I'm in one of my moods I've been carrying around more crap then normal.
5. The added stress of school is actually making my grades slip a little, which ticks me off at myself.

Now, mainly for the benefit of myself, I'm going to list off the 'beauties.'
1. I have wonderful friends and teachers who are willing to help me when school seems like it's going to take my whole life over.
2. God invented weekends.
3. I'm getting to dump all my feelings on Scott actually right now, and already it feels like a weight has been lifted.
4. Just the fact that I am where I am, in my relationships, where I live, even spiritually, is a wonderful blessing.
5. I've learned through this how to push through, even when I have a giant weight on my shoulders.
6. I have beautiful women in my life that I can look to and be inspired by like Caylie, Carolyn, Emily, the list goes on.
7. Except for a severe lack of sleep, I am pretty much perfectly healthy.
8. I actually could keep adding and adding to this list.

The good outnumbers the bad. It always has, and always will. Just the fact that I am on this earth is a miracle and a blessing. It's just so easy to focus on the bad I forget that there is so much good in my life.
So... Yeah. Thank you all for putting up with my crap. I know I might not be the easiest lady to deal with, but I really do love and care about all of you, you just might not be able to tell. I'm not the best when it comes to relationships, true, deep relationships, but I'm working on it.
Again, I love you guys a lot.
Keep being amazing,
Gracie