An ick day.

You know how on most blogs people start out with: Hey World! Today was a great day! ? Well today really wasn't that great of a day for me.
I'm not going to sit here and furiously type out my frustrations to you, because I know you don't want to hear it. But a while back I made a really, really bad mistake and slipped up in an area that I shouldn't have slipped in. It has made a couple of relationships that are extremely important to me mess up. Well, not completely mess up, but it's made them harder. I thought that I was okay with it, but today all of a sudden it's really pressing down again. The past few days have been building up to it, but today it's making me loose my mind.
You know that kid game? I think it's called Jenga. It's where you build this amazing tower out of wooden blocks, then you pull them out one by one making everything weaker and weaker. Eventually, with that last pull of the block, it tumbles down and you have to build everything over again. That's kinda where I am, standing and looking at a fallen tower, wishing that I hadn't pulled that last block out, forced to rebuild.
I think I'm going to leave it at that. I have some math to do. So I'll leave you with the wisdom of The Verve Pipe, a bridge and a chorus:


We've tried to wash our hands of all this
We never talk of our lacking relationships
And how we're guilt stricken sobbing with our
Heads on the floor
We fell through the ice when we tried not to
Slip, we'd say


For the life of me I cannot remember
What made us think that we were wise and
We'd never compromise
For the life of me I cannot believe
We'd ever die for these sins
We were merely freshmen